whookay.. ive been uhhmm.. doing ALOT of thinking today. and, yeah. all i could really think about was ... you. ive come to a decision. something that i dont really wanna do. but its probably for the best. well, best for you maybe. coz its killing me inside. even though i love you so much. yes, you heard it. i love you. and as champ sed, "i dont care what they say, i dont care what they do". even though i love you so much, im going to have to give you up. but that doesnt mean im gonna stop loving you or dreaming that someday we'll be together. it just means im gona stop trying to make you mine already. im gonna stop all the diskarte and just give up. because i know you're better off without a guy like me. you deserve a handsome, sweet, romantic, nice, kind guy. a prince charming or sumthing. and i most definitely know i aint your prince charming. and even though it hurts like hell to say that, it's still true and i have to deal with it. i mean, i love you enough to want to see you happy. yet, i want to be happy too. and ive decided to just stop thinking of my own happinness. and let yours go first. i know youve got alot of other guys after you. and im sure, that one day.. you'll make one guy the luckiest guy in the world by being by his side.. and i can be there in the crowd. supporting you, even though inside i just wanna break down and cry. you were never really mine, so why does it hurt so much? maybe its coz ive tried so hard on trying to get you to be with me. maybe.... i pity myself. well, watever the reason. it doesnt really matter right now. all i want to stress out here is that... im no longer after you. i still want you... but i know i can never have you.. so i guess i'll just give up... hope you get what you want...

 

 

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Currently listening to: for you i will
Currently reading: what i just wrote
Posted by _JeT_L on April 2, 2006 at 06:30 PM | ....:)

whookay... i had fun today... weeeheee.. hahaha... caught up on old friends... hung out... one of my better days...hehehehe

Posted by _JeT_L on April 1, 2006 at 11:49 AM | ....:)

okay, i havnt realy been updating... but yeah.. hu givs a bull crap. im just plain tired... tired.... tired.. its as if.... i dnt know anyone... and no one knows me. i mean... lyk... i dnt know... i feel like no one realy knows the real me. and, well.. it hurts... coz it feels lyk no one gives a shit.. about who i am... wat I want... wat I need.. im always giving.. but the truth is. i want stuff in return too... not all the time... just like once in a while. doesnt have to be in material form.. just showing you care... or watever... im sorry, i just feel lyk.... i dnt know... im.... used... or watever... im not sure wat i feel....hahai... this is ... i dnt know.. ya'll probly think different of me now... coz of that 'i want stuff in return' thing. well, i dnt care. this is a blog... i can let out all i want... its not lyk any1 is gona read this anyway... hahaie... i dnt know... i guess i'l just stop here... check back with you tomorw.

Currently listening to: my fuckin cuzin watching small ville
Posted by _JeT_L on March 31, 2006 at 04:06 PM | ....:)
hhhhmmmm... ok... it turns out.. i dint stay home the whole day yesterday... i went to ayala with my mom and dad.... then i caught up with josh.. then we bought these candies from candy corner.. which were ayt.. except for the banana flavored one... it just made us depressed .. so we went to ice monster and orderd a brownie fudge ice... that cheered us up!!.. ahahaha.. ambot na lang... yea... then my parents called for me to have dinner... then we went home... ahaha.. nya mao na xa... that's all i can share...  bye2x
Posted by _JeT_L on December 19, 2005 at 04:32 AM | ....:)
oh my god... the last tym i updated this thing was last july!! bwahahahaa!!ü taya ... dugaya na d.ay sah??..hahai.. anyway.. its xmas vacation now and well... so far, its goin well... i slept the whole day yesterday... but i lost the bet to issa though... gggrr you iss!! ahahaha... and now... ambot na lang!!.. dri ra ko sa balai the whole day... hehehehe... im soo happy... so far.. nakadawat na kog 3 gifts from friends... which makes me suupperr happy coz no one ever gives me stuff ... ahahaha... i knw.. im pathetic... but, i dnt care.... hahai.. did i mention? i finaly got an ipod!! weeee for me!! ahahaha.. only 650 songs pa.. hahai... ahahaha.. gots a long way to go b4 xa ma puno... hmmm... ambot lang oi... let me get back to my day of doing nothin lang sah... i promise i'l continue updating this thing nah... ... ok?!?!? ahahaha...
Posted by _JeT_L on December 18, 2005 at 05:50 AM | ....:)

*START*

 Lami.a sa nahitabo gahapon doh!!! aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh....

woke uP around 7 freakin 30!!! ahaha... then i took a bath ryt away coz i was really excyted for wat was about to happen.... and it took me about an hour and a half...i grabbed my guitar... my ampli... then around 9... i left.... i went to josh;s house to pick him up... but wen i got there... he was stil takin a bath.... then... wen he was ready... we left to pick up issa and kathya at issa's house.... then went to my dad's office... then we started setting up the instruments... then kristian arrived... then... the fun realy began.....

lingaw kaayo!!!!! nag jamming mi!!!! im finally in a band!!!! maboang ko!!! coola gahapon oi!! nindot kaaug tingog si issa(lead bokalista:sing... maayo kau  mutudlo si kristian(band leAder!)... maayo kay si josh mu drums(drummerista!) believe kaayo ko... i knew he cud play the drums but... i never imagined him to be THAT good!!!! true rocker jud!!! nya si kathya(rythm guitarist/backup bokals) sad... may sad kaau mo rythm!!!!! nya... the last but best... ME(lead guitar and back up vocals) ahaha... cud hav been a  much better LEAD vocalist and dancer though!!!!! ahahaha.. jk!ü bsta... we practiced my sacrifice the whole time... i had a hard time masterin the intro but eventually got it(ako pa?!?!?)... and there was this drunk guy hu kept on interrupting us... annoying guy... ahahaha!! then.. we had time to do watever bfore we left... nya... i had to bring kathya home... and dropped josh,kristian and bouviere somewer els... i askd kathya if i cud hang at her house but she refused.... but thats aryt.... i ended up eatin in my fav restaurant after.... SINANGAG!!! mmmmmmm.... longsilog... nya on my way home... i bought strings for my electric... and i bought a new pick... then... wen i got home... my mom told me to get ready coz we were goin to danao,,, and i was like... can i sleep first!??!?! im sooo freakin sleepy!!!.... and she was like... NO...and i was like... FINE!! and i just slept in the car on the way there... then... i hung out in danao for a while.. then went home... and went onlyn for a while... then shut my eyes..... and drifted away to dream land

 

*END* 

Currently listening to: my sacrifice
Posted by _JeT_L on July 17, 2005 at 09:47 AM | ....:)

aryt.. the rules are... im gonna write a description bwt 15 pipz.... i wont tell hu they are though.. nya... u hav to guess hu im talkin abwt!!!

 

1.  you stuck by me throughout our entire freshman year... i thank you for that... it was a hard year for me!! thanks... ur like a bro to me.. even though i dnt shw it that much..

2. we wernt classmates last yr and not this yr.... but ur stil my best bro!!! take care bai!! ur super cool!!! even if ur weird!! hahaha!!!

3. you were also one of the people hu stuck by me during our freshie year!! thanks!!! i knw we fight alot.. but i really do love you!!

4. i just really got to knw you... ur super cool!!! and i love your hugz... havnt gotten one in a long time though!!

5. just met you this summer... but meeting you is like meeting an angel... sOoOOOOoOOo nicE!!!! a really cool friend!!

6. we may fight at times... but we hav cool memories too!! ur one of my closest friends.. i knw i can always count on you!!! 

7. u funny seatmate.... i love you!!! knw y?!? u always laugh at my jokes!!!! no matter how corny!!!

8. coolest cuz.... the first friend ive ever had... the first and only guy ive ever been in a shower in!! ahahahaa!!! weird!!!

9. the guy hu inspired me to play the guitar!!! u dnt knw this!! but u did inspire me!!! ahahaha

10. ur my big sis!!! my big adopted sis!!! one of the people i can really trust... i lab you!!!

11. my bro!!! my basketball bud!!!! ur my teamate for life bai!!! take care!!

12. my other bro and basket ball bud... but.. ur a back stabber!! ahahaha!! joke!!

13. i met u... and hav knwn u for a long tym now!!!! but just really got to knw u now lang.. ur realy nice!! pretend girlfriend!!

14. my bestfrn na girl!!!! ahahaha!!! i realy love u parts!!! u better take care!!!

15.  u made me hu i am today... i love you above all!!!

Posted by _JeT_L on July 9, 2005 at 03:18 PM | ....:)

dUgaYa na Au kO aLai uPdAte2x anih DaH!!! ahaHAhaha apriL 18 aNg LasT... aNd yEah... iT sAid tHank gOd ivE fOunD hEr... a fEw wEeKs LAtEr i LosT hEr... tHeN i fOunD anOdEr onE... tHen sHe tOo bRoKe mY fREakin hEaRt... tHen i vOunD anOdEr gUrL... aNd untiL nOw... sHe hAsnt bRokeN mY heaRt... tHis sUmMer aLonE... i hAd 5 FrigGin cRusHeS!!! hahaiz... niWeiz... sKuL's sTarteD... aNd tHank gOd... mY cLAsSmaTes aRe peOpLe i LaB!!!... perO issA anD jOsh aRe in tHe oTher sEctiOn Lang.. tsk tsk tsk!!! nYa... i LAb Our aDvisEr!!! aHAhaha!!! anD i hAv a nEw lEast fAve tEacHEr!!! aHAhaha!!! itS tEAcHer *******... ahAHaha!!! niWeiz... im sOoOoOoOo hAppy fOr iSs anD kaTh.... tHeyvE mAde neW fWendS!!! nYa LinGAw aUt gAHaPon.. kAi ninghimU kOg LeTter sa pRinciPaL kAI di kO gAnaHan oG I. T. cLub.. iyA mAn kO gi butaNg did2... bAlhin LAgi kO sPorTs!!! tHe pOwEr oF tHe Pen!! AHahahaha!!!   ok... heRe's wAt i think oF aLL mY fRikkin cLasSmaTes...

 

aRyt..

1.  rAe- gwaPo!!!! kiLLer sMiLe bAi!!!

2.  kEvin- di jUd mAminAw sA tEacHer.. kk Ra na bai!!! dUhA nA tAh!!!

3. jEdD- akOng wAi aU peRo LinGaw na iGagaO!!! feLLow sOuthPark LovEr!!!\

4. eDgaR- ahHAhaha!! vEry nicE!!! dbA eDgaR?!?!?! aHAhaha!!!

5. jOLu- pUertenG tA.asa... na aPsAn kO dAh.. mAg cHerrifEr kO baLik!!!

6. LeLu- LeLu gwaPo!!!! aHAha!!! cUtest gUy in cLasS!!! 

7. peV- cGeg pAminOang ni LeLu!!! AhahAHaha!! k rA nA baI!!!!

8. kAthyA-- kAtcHa!!! aHAhaha!!! kaTchA!! Lab yOUr hUgs!!! tHAnks!!:D

9. gEOrgiA- oRmOc girL... nEw sTudE... cOoOOOOLL

10. mAry aNn- aHahaha!! fAvoritE cLAsSmaTe.. LAmi aU binOaNgOn!!!!!

11. yUmi- sAbA.a oi!!!! sAmOk!!! iLok.. bUgAn!!!! aHehheHEhe

12. sAm- pArtnEr in cRimE ni yUmi!!!!

13.  jOan- akOng idOL!!!!!!! aHahaha!! jOAn!!

14. gErLie- ambOt... mY sEatmAte..... nO cOmmEnt!!!

15. aKki!!!- paRtneR in cRimE ni gErLie!!

16. rOdEenA- aHAhaha!!! rODeena!!!! gWApa!!!!!!

17. rEnEttE- hiLomOn... mAo rAh.. oPposite tO mE....

Posted by _JeT_L on June 18, 2005 at 04:43 AM | ....:)
hEy!!! dBa i tOLd u gUyS nA i gAvE uP nAh!!!??? wELL kItA nA k0g bAg.O!!! bwahahahaha!!!! wLa LaNg..... aNsWeR tHe bLoG bEfOrE tHiS oNe hA!!! tHaNkS!!!
Posted by _JeT_L on April 18, 2005 at 02:51 PM | ....:)
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